Something I have noticed change about myself recently is my lost interest in playing video games. I do admit that I still play them, but gone are the days of playing Call Of Duty for 4-5 hours a day. I have picked up playing a new game, League of Legends, which I do enjoy but not so much that it is a necessity to play as I once felt.
There is probably a number of factors to this change, the leading one being becoming a father. Children are a lot of work but it is the most rewarding work I have ever done. I give her so much and she returns it in so many ways. She makes my heart burst on an almost daily basis and I still cannot get enough.
The other cause I feel for this change is that a house is also a lot of work. Our house was move in ready, which many of our friends/family’s homes were not, and we still have been putting in a lot of work turning it into our home. I get a huge return on the time and energy spent keeping up a house. The biggest returns are providing my family a place to create memories and feel safe. Stating it will sound cheesy but it feels as though I am living my dream to have a home that is my own and a family to raise in it.
From another perspective, I have also come to realize with the above changes means I have a fraction of the free time I used to have. This has been a good thing because it has forced me to prioritize what is most important to invest my time. Lately I have been feeling the strong urge again to program and really dive into it. I had a conversation with a co-worker and her recommendation was that if I was serious I would need to go back to school and obtain a degree to really get career as a developer/software engineer. This as been something I have been wanting to do since moving to my current company but also had the very expensive changes in lifestyle already listed. I have decided to spend my time to write some code and decide on an application to write from beginning to end so that I may get a better feel about investing the time and energy into a degree. If I find that I do not like it and keep it as a hobby I will be happy and can pursue other career aspirations. I have also come to realize along this line of thinking that I would much prefer to spend my limited time learning to program in Ruby to build a small app or site so that I obtain some value.
I will still enjoy the occasional video game and will most likely never completely quit. What I have found is that the achievements unlocked in a video game don’t translate to a form of success that I value any longer. They will become a past time for when I can decide to be unproductive or ‘vegetate’.